Happiest Feelings

The most intense feelings of happiness I ever had were as a young child. Before I was ten. For so long I thought everyone else had deep feelings like that in their earliest years until I started asking around and realised it was just me.

I seemed to discover love, guys and feelings which I can only decsribe today as being on a natural ecstacy-like high when I was around guys I was attracted to, at a very early age. It wasn't exactly sexual, but rather more incredably exciting, like I was about to be taken to some exotic paradise and shown the treasures of the world. Sounds so cheesy, but really those feelings were sprinkled with golddust.

What ever happened since then? When did I put on synical glasses and start accepting a more morbid love life? I've accepted it so much that I had forgotten how deep those old feelings were until today when I found an old song that I hadn't heard in decades. And the feelings came flooding back. What a feeling!

Puts you completely out of perspective with todays world. As if today is so cruel, harsh and grey. And in the video the male singer has so much charisma despite being an average looking guy for that decade. He is confident, and flirty and even slightly feminine without feeling awkward about it. It's been a while since I have seen anyone like that. Am I living in the wrong area? Maybe it's just the 60'sish vibe that dominated people back then, i dont know.

If i can figure out how to attach a you tube video, i will, if I have enough courage to risk being criticised that is!

later